Holley Gerth challenged our team to write about fear today.
I don’t fear the classroom. I don’t fear the stage or the conference room. I don’t even fear the publisher who may decide my work is not a good fit.
I don’t fear the dreaming, the doing, or the never-ending hard work.
Some might say my confidence is as high as the dream I catapulted to the sky back on August 10.
I can admit that I should not go it alone. I have been blessed with wonderful people who are spurring me on. I am identifying, with my dear husband, positive actions I can take to keep moving forward in pursuit of the vocational aspirations within me.
However, despite my ever growing courage, I fear the button.
What button? The little God-sized Dream Team button. I fear what this title says about me to my readers. I wonder what doors will shut when I align myself with a Godly-community in a culture that has such disdain for the evangelical vein.
I fear that if I start writing regularly I may offend those I was raised around and I fear I could alienate the very people I want to get to know now.
I am proud to be in the midst of a great team, so the button’s fear-inducing manner intrigues me. Who would have thought I would be scared to blog because of a button?
I want to know the world. I want to embrace the nations. I want to be in this city and in this country as someone who respects everyone and stays in conversation with all people.
Why? Because the truth is, I am hopeful. I am hopeful that as I strive to have actions which emulate a man named Jesus, that I can also use my professional experiences and personality to embrace and encourage all types people in their walks of life.
I don’t want to convert my readers, I don’t want to appease the Christian community, and I don’t want to compromise my understanding of the truth simply to gain favor with others. And so Lord-willing, I don’t come off that way. The button does not take away these standards of mine. Right? Right!
I am in this journey to align my strengths and purposes to meet the needs of a messy world, particularly students and the struggling young adult.
Because I know what Holley stands for, because I look forward to writing about the brain, students, Bangladesh, adoption, etc. and dream of speaking on behalf of people and businesses that want wellness in others, I declare today, the day of the button-babe boldness.
Here’s to Holley, for calling the fear out of me!
Here’s to the God-sized Dream Team for inspiring me! (CW, KH, DB)
Here’s to the people and communities I love dearly back in Michigan, you color so much of what I do and how I think!
Here’s to the chapter of life that is allowing me to brush shoulders with (in)courage ladies, David K., Jim H., Jeff S., Patrick S., Chris K., Sara D., Lindsey N., Sarah S., Tamara R., Randy K., Laurie D. And Leah K.., who have shown me that fear is not an excuse for not standing solidly.
Here’s to the adventure ahead with my dear husband and 3 sons; we journey hand in hand…
For all that we enjoy and all that we endure, let us to move forward despite the fear,
“In the world you will have tribulation. But take heart; I have overcome the world.” -Jesus’ words as written in John 16:33